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The Wild One, Birds, Rabbits and Kittens…

Title: Fragments of Time (Memoirs)

Author: Snigdha Agrawal

Publisher: Notion Press

To say I was the wild one out of the four would be an understatement. The non-conformist in me surfaced very early on.  I never tired of climbing trees, sitting on the guava tree branches, gorging on the half-ripe fruits, rescuing kittens from overflowing drains, cycling around the golf course, swimming and dancing in the rain. Activities one would tend to associate with boys. Indulging in these activities gave me a high, like no other, despite the occasional mishaps, sometimes returning home with cuts and bruises and once a sprained ankle.  The latter memory still brings on chuckles and many more acts of dare-devilry, often landing me in serious trouble.

When I was about ten or eleven, I found myself clutching a squash racquet, sitting impatiently in the upper gallery of the court. My sibling and our best buddy were monopolising the game, deaf to my relentless pleas for a turn. Frustrated, I finally resorted to threats. “I’ll jump down and physically drag you two out!” I declared, pointing to the six-foot drop beneath me.

They burst out laughing, waving off my threat as an empty bluff. “Alright then, here I come!” I announced with dramatic flair before leaping off the gallery like a tragic superhero. Predictably, I landed flat on my skinny, bony backside, twisted ankle and all. Tears of pain and humiliation stung my eyes as I sat there, my busted pride compounded by the unmistakable warmth of pee spreading beneath me.

The scene was absurd: me, sprawled on the court floor, ankle throbbing, dignity in tatters and wet underwear adding to the shame. To their credit, the two culprits did feel a little bad. They hoisted me up and hobbled me home. Thereafter, I was sentenced to two weeks of house arrest with a plastered leg. My heroic leap had cost me not only a turn at squash but also a chunk of my pride.

The ‘Jamun’ (Java plum) season brings back more laughs—and another painfully ridiculous memory. The broad trunk of the Jamun tree in the backyard was too tall for us kids to climb, so we enlisted the gardener to shimmy up and shake the branches. The purple fruit rained down like magical stardust, scattering across the ground.

In a frenzy, I dashed across the open drain, gathering the fleshy fruits in my frock, which I’d rolled up to create a makeshift pouch. In my excitement, I missed a step and went flying face-first into the drain. The Jamuns soared into the air in protest, pelting down on me like purple confetti as I lay sprawled, filthy, and bruised.

My loyal partners-in-crime stared down at me, their goofy grins quickly morphing into full-blown laughter. Their hilarity was so contagious that even I couldn’t help but laugh at my misadventure. Covered in muck and Jamun juice, I climbed out of the drain, purple-tongued and scratched up, determined not to let Ma discover my mishap.

With my frock a casualty of war, I sneaked past her, heading straight for a long, scrubbing shower to erase all evidence of the day’s follies. No way was I going to cry or complain. If there’s one thing childhood taught me, it’s that a little dignity can survive even the most spectacular disasters.

Growing up with pets

During this period, the animal world entered our home, each one leaving under different circumstances.  Out of the many, the first that appears in my mind is a monkey, kept in the garden shed, brought out occasionally to be fed, and patted.  The gardener spotted the baby wandering around amongst the flower beds, looking lost and forlorn, in search of his mother, who probably had been chased back into the nearby Sal forests.  Baba decided to parent this little guy till he was of age and able to fend for himself.  Honestly, I never liked this furry creature, with large round eyes, vying for Baba’s attention.  Six months later, he was seen bounding off with confidence, probably in search of a mate.  

A parakeet with an orange beak, vibrant green feathers, and a long-spotted tail was the next addition to our home. This feisty little bird quickly made its presence felt, taking liberties whenever it was let out of its cage. It would hop onto the dining table and help itself to the food, unbothered by anyone’s protests. Though it was most attached to Baba, it also formed a special bond with Didi, the eldest sister. The bird would happily perch on her shoulder, observing the household with a sense of ownership.

Despite our many attempts to teach it to sing catchy tunes, the parakeet refused to comply, displaying an attitude far too big for its tiny frame. The only sound it ever uttered from its hooked beak was “khuku…khuku,” Didi’s pet name.

One day, the bird decided it was time to spread its wings—literally—and see the world beyond the confines of its cosy cage. The catalyst? A heated argument between Baba and Didi, during which Didi earned herself a thorough scolding for talking back. When she started crying, Laljhuti, the parakeet, seemed to lose its tiny green mind.

Squawking like an avian alarm, Laljhuti transformed into a miniature cyclone, zipping through the room at breakneck speed. It knocked over cups and sent saucers crashing, turning perfectly folded papers into a confetti of chaos. In its final act of rebellion, Laljhuti delivered precise nips to both Baba and Didi, leaving behind small but meaningful bite marks—souvenirs of its outrage. And then, with a dramatic flair, worthy of a Bollywood hero storming out after a family quarrel, Laljhuti shot straight out of the house.

Didi was inconsolable. Her beloved Laljhuti was gone. For days, she stood on the veranda, calling its name with the kind of desperation usually reserved for lost lottery tickets. But the green tornado had no intention of returning. Laljhuti had flown the coop, leaving behind only chaos, confusion, and a few well-placed dents in family egos.

To console her, Baba brought home a flock of colourful Budgerigars. These cheerful, social birds were more manageable and quickly became part of our household. They lived in a specially built cage, which Baba cleaned daily, ensuring their water and food bowls were always replenished. Their lively chatter often blended with our own, filling the house with a delightful din.

Over time, however, we lost a few of them and Baba decided to set the remaining ones free. With that, the “bird phase” of our lives came to an end, leaving behind memories of fluttering wings and chirping voices.

Next came a bunny rabbit, a fluffball with the whitest fur, pink glassy eyes, and a bushy tail that wiggled with mischief. This little creature was treated like royalty, roaming freely around the house and being pampered with baby carrots.

While everyone adored it, I had my grievances—specifically its habit of leaving tiny black droppings in the most inconvenient places. The worst was finding them nestled in my school shoes. There’s nothing quite like starting your day by gagging over rabbit poop.

To this day, I can’t recall what became of the bunny. One day it was there, twitching its nose and ruling the household, and the next, its cage had been unceremoniously relegated to the garden shed. Perhaps it hopped off to greener pastures, or maybe someone had finally had enough of the shoe sabotage. Either way, the bunny left its mark—quite literally—all over my childhood memories.

The last one was a surprise birthday gift for me and my twin, which arrived packaged in a shoe box, lined with layers of cotton.  A two-week-old Siamese kitten got from a litter of eight and was as tiny as the palm of my hand.  I watched Baba and Ma taking turns feeding this one with milk, prying open its mouth and squeezing the cotton ball soaked in milk.  He was named “Tuuta” and as he grew, the colour of his coat changed from white to grey and then a darker shade of grey. From milk, he graduated to eating goat entrails mashed with cooked rice and was a happy camper, rubbing his back against Ma’s legs, perhaps as a reminder it was feeding time. My twin and I fought over him, as one would fight over toys, setting dates for Tuuta’s sleeping schedule under our blankets.  One week in my bed, the next week in my twin’s bed.  Soon enough the fights ceased, with “Tuuta“, going out for overnight dates with the stray cats in the neighbourhood, probably the most sought-after male in the cat kingdom. The reasons could be his debonair looks, his pedigree and the fact that he lived in a bungalow, served gourmet meals, slept on whichever bed he fancied and most importantly, had his toilet created out of a wooden crate, filled with sand, where he performed his daily business.  Cleaned periodically. And if we so much as watched him at his job, he gave the stinky eye as if to say — “Get lost.  Let me shit in peace!”  

His entry/exit route for the overnight dates was through the open bathroom exhaust window.  One morning when Ma found he had not turned up for his breakfast, we looked everywhere and found him in the half-filled bathtub with water up to his neck, trying to scramble out, with little success.  The philanderer had missed his step on the ledge of the bathtub and landed inside.  Of course, that didn’t change our love for him.  He continued with such escapades, sowing quite a few wild oats, and ended up catching rabies.  A very sad end for him and us.  My twin and I had to take the rabies injection for a fortnight.  Very painful shots in the hips, administered by the Company doctor in the hospital.  Thus ended the saga of “Tuuta” the Siamese cat with whiskers that tickled, my favourite.

About the Author

Snigdha Agrawal (née Banerjee) is an aspiring writer who views herself as a perpetual learner on an ever-evolving creative journey. A graduate of Loreto Institutions and brought up in a cosmopolitan environment, she weaves a rich tapestry of Eastern and Western cultural influences into her literary work. Her writing is also shaped by two decades of corporate experience, which lends depth and realism to her narratives.

Spanning genres from short stories to poetry, her lifelong passion for creative writing is fuelled by a desire to connect with readers, evoke emotions, and spark reflection through her vivid storytelling.  She is a published author of five books, the latest Fragments of Time (Memoirs) is available on Amazon worldwide and on Flipkart, in Paperback, Hardcover and Kindle formats.

Now in her 70s, she embraces life with curiosity and an unquenchable thirst for learning. When not immersed in writing, she explores new places and shares her adventures on her travel blog.

Based in Bangalore, India, Snigdha finds enduring inspiration in her husband, her partner of nearly fifty years. Together, they continue to cherish and celebrate the ever-changing journey of life, which serves as the foundation for her creative pursuits.

About the Book

Fragments of Time is a heartwarming memoir that celebrates the beauty of life’s quiet yet meaningful moments.  Written by a woman in her seventies, it offers reflections on childhood, love, loss, and ageing, transforming the ordinary into the extraordinary.  With grace, humour and honesty, these stories reveal the richness of a life well-lived, reminding readers that even the simplest experiences hold profound value and are worth cherishing and sharing.

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Poetry by John Grey

Art by Salvador Dali (1904-1989)
THE STREET MUSICIAN’S PHILOSOPHY

Thirty years from now, what will it matter?
What goes wrong now will be forgotten then.
I’ll be dead, my guitar in a dumpster.

When you toss money in my cap,
you’re funding a stranger’s problems.
Not the music. You barely listen to what

I’m strumming and singing. My body
needs sustenance to keep from breaking down.
Your spare change ends up in the pocket of some pusher.

But I’m not complaining. A boyhood dream
warms itself by a grownup nightmare. I can
call myself a musician. Addict is another’s word.

And thirty years from now, I’ll be as forgotten
as the ones that got clean, who had no music in them.
So nothing matters. But its generosity is always welcome.


PARENTS

She looks up from time to time,
as if to penetrate the ceiling,
to get at the room
where she spent ten years
nursing a dying father.

It's over now
but her stress doesn't think so.
Not while her mother’s
fragile drifting speech,
wrinkled eyes,
fall far short of knowing anyone.

These are the only parents
she will ever have –
the father of her nose,
the mother of her mouth,
one passed on from life,
the other from identity.

She once was their daughter.
There’s no name for what she is now.

John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident. His latest books are Between Two Fires, Covert and  Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon. His upcoming work will be in Haight-Ashbury Literary Journal, Amazing Stories and River and Sout.

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Declaring the Universe Open

Poetry by John Grey

THE BLESSING OF AFTER-RAIN

The rain has stopped.
The sky is clearing.
It’s too late for the sun
but the moon,
full and glowing gold,
does what it can
to illuminate the world.
I step outside,
breathe the newly minted air,
look up to where the stars,
in various states of gleaming,
declare the universe open
for heads titled backward,
eyes wide enough
to encompass everything up there.
I must thank the rain for this.
So much in life is intensified
by time spent with its opposite.


CHORUS


Birds sing a chorus.
And the wind orchestrates.
We shimmer in the throat of song,
the finches that come by daily,
the occasional red-winged blackbird,
the mourning doves whose grief is purely ornamental
for don't they hog the meatiest of seeds at the feeder,
and aren't their wings wide and light enough
to ride the praise and silence of our breath.


John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident. His latest books are Between Two Fires, Covert and  Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon. His upcoming work will be in
Haight-Ashbury Literary Journal, Amazing Stories and River and Sout.

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Poems by John Grey

From Public Domain
THIS HEAT WAVE

It's over a hundred.
Trees droop close to melting.
Air-conditioners whirr and whine.
The electrical grid sputters close to blackout.

Air is slow to get around
and some climate skeptic
in a row house on Broadway
wipes his brow,
unpeels his shirt,
thinks maybe this really is
the hottest it's ever been.

In my house,
with every window open,
I imagine a crystal blue stream
cascading down from mountains.
Even in my mind,
it turns to steam in an instant.


LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE MOUNTAIN


It was gold up there
and my head could see clear
to the next state
and to the people I knew in childhood.

Forget the wind
and the soughing boughs
and the cold rocks
and the clotted dry grass --
there were sounds
like bells ringing
and steps that penetrated clouds.

It was like a table
set for me.
And lit by one candle, one sun.

I approached
gods fit to worship
and they thanked me for my kind words
but then directed me
to deities even greater.

When I reached the peak,
the sky was a wide blue altar.
I climbed so high
just so I could drop to my knees.

John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in New World Writing, North Dakota Quarterlyand Lost Pilots. His latest books are Between Two Fires, Covert and  Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon. 

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Cat in the Morning & More Poems

By John Grey

CAT IN THE MORNING

It’s dark out
as the cat takes up residence
on the sill of a wide open window.
The sparrows in the trees outside
don’t notice him
or, more likely, just don’t care
having established that he’s a house cat,
too domesticated,
too set in his ways,
too lazy to chase prey.
But then the cat yawns and the sun rises.
So he’s still powerful in that respect.

POINT REYES


Early May,
the waystation mudflats
are inundated
with sandpipers, godwits
and a squabble of
long-billed dowitchers,
all Arctic bound.

Grebe flocks wheel relentlessly
over the ponds
before settling, as one,
to feast.

Inland, small herds of
deer and tule elk feed.

Cliffs provide a rookery for heron
and their pine-tops
are full of screeching young.

Here,
life is a quirk
of its own clear fate.
Its joy is not to dabble
but sustain.


A GARDEN IN SNOW

Brushing away snow,
she uncovers the stone dog.
And its hare companion,
solid, steadfast, despite
the bitterness of winter.

Only the garden succumbs
to the heartless weather:
sunflowers slaughtered,
dahlias defeated,
tulips trampled,
rose-bushes ripped raw.
If there’s any fight left in them,
it eludes her gloved fingers.

Early March,
and it’s like looking in on children.
Some are still robust.
Most are memories.


John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in New World Writing, North Dakota Quarterly and Lost Pilots. His latest books are Between Two Fires, Covert and  Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon.

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Fleeting Images

By Wayne Russell

FLEETING IMAGES 

Fleeting images jostling for
a permanent place in the
hallowed halls of my mind,
can't help drowning in my
nostalgia.

I hold her within the sweaty
palm of my hand, the soul of
this candle trembling in the
gentle springtime breeze.

The river continues its journey
effortlessly, lost in the haze of
millennia gone; I can see her in
dark shadows, her ghost drifting

in the abstract of life death and
everything else in-between.

Wayne Russell is a creative jack of all trades, master of none. Poet, rhythm guitar player, singer, artist, photographer, and author of the poetry books “Where Angels Fear” via Guerilla Genius Press, and the newly released “Splinter of the Moon” via Silver Bow Publishing, they are both available for purchase on Amazon.

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Anticipation

By Michael Lee Johnson

Moko Jumbies (or stilt walkers in colourful costumes) evolved from an old West African tradition, dating back to 13th-14th century. The tradition became part of American lore two hundred years ago as the plantation owners would import workers from Africa.  
ANTICIPATION 

I watch out my condo window
this winter, packing up and leaving for spring.
I structure myself in a dream as
Moko Jumbie, masquerader
on stilts. I lean out my balcony
window in anticipation.
Dead branches, snow paper-thin,
brown spots, shared spaces.
A slug of Skol vodka,
a glass of cheap sweet
Carlo Rossi rose red wine.
I wait these last few days out.
That first robin,
The beginning of brilliance—
crack, emerald dark, these colours.

Michael Lee Johnson is a poet in the greater Chicagoland area, IL. He is an internationally published poet in 46 countries, a song lyricist, has several published poetry books. He is editor-in-chief of 3 poetry anthologies, all available on Amazon, and has several poetry books.

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Poetry by John Grey

WHEN I FINALLY LEFT HOME

It was two hours before
I returned home
to load up the rest of my stuff
into the back of the van.

It was three days before
I showed up
for a home-cooked dinner.

It was a week before
I struggled through
that familiar front door
with my laundry.

And three months before,
the big lie –
“My landlord promised my apartment
to his son and new daughter-in-law”
when the truth was,
I couldn’t hack it on my own.

It was two years before,
I really did leave home.

It was the first
but not the last time,
I said “Finally.”



BATTLE LINES

Your house abuts your neighbors’.
And they brawl incessantly,
in words and sometimes in deed.
Hands over ears don’t help.
Their hardness, their selfishness,
their cruelty towards each other,
penetrates everything in their way.

The husband beats his wife.
She thrashes the boy.
The boy screams at his sister.
The sister smashes things
against her bedroom wall.

You live alone in loneliness.
Their closeness chafes into rage.
They can't merely sob like you.
They all have to take life out on somebody.

The violence quietens down eventually.
Explosions retreat into shame.
You even hear some sighs of regret,
a hug here and there.

You don’t pity them.
You’re too busy pitying yourself.
You can’t remember the last time
you had someone to make up to.


LISTEN UP

We, always the lesser of the two in a relationship,
need a more explicit way to establish our equality

than a limp stance or an emaciated smile.
We, who live in a constant state of ambush,

or underfoot, or mostly outside looking in,
must find, within ourselves, louder voices,

stronger cuss words, eyes that bulge with anger
rather than the kind that retreat deep in their sockets.

I recommend doing this in front of a full-length mirror.
You’d be surprised how much you can terrify yourself.


AN OLD MAN’S LAST HIKE

How far I’ve come, the road beyond won’t tell me.
Up ahead, it’s more of a trail but, thankfully,
it winds its way through forests, to rivers
and the wide, clear lake they drain into.

It doesn’t even matter if I make it to the waters,
anyplace now, from the field of wildflowers
to the sturdy trunks of ancient trees,
is a place of comfort for old bodies.

My blood can spur on the new shoots,
my flesh, grow moss and mushrooms,
my bones, replenish the limestone hills,
my darkness, free the light.


MY PARENTS’ GRAVES

He’s buried in a small country graveyard,
his rough slab also interred
but in long grass not earth.

Her ashes lie
beneath a smooth slab of granite.
in a field that surrounds
a city crematorium.

His coffin,
her remains.
are a hundred miles apart.

She was fifty years a widow in life
and is still a widow in death.

John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in New World Writing, North Dakota Quarterly and Lost Pilots. His latest books, Between Two Fires, Covert and Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon. He has writing upcoming in California Quarterly, Seventh Quarry, La Presa and Doubly Mad.

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Poetry by John Grey

Groundhog. Groundhog Day is celebrated on February 2nd. If the groundhogs leave the den where they hibernated, the weather is supposed to move towards spring. This observance has its roots in ancient Celtic culture.
GROUNDHOG DAY

It’s Groundhog Day.
The groundhog is somewhere
burrowed deep in the ground.
Either the groundhog 
doesn’t know what day it is
or he doesn’t care.
But, then again, 
Christ doesn’t show up
on Christmas either.
Just your father
and his new wife
with some toys.
It’s the one time of the year,
you see his shadow.


TWILIGHT

day flies off
like cardinals
and gold-finches

night
settles
on the branches
like crows

mice
scamper nervously
across the forest floor

all the birds
are owls


WORKING MY WAY THROUGH THE DICTIONARY, 
	I AM NOW AT Q

Some words 
have tens, 
if not hundreds, 
of synonyms.
Others,
hardly any at all.
That is why I’ve never 
written a poem about a quark.
That word, 
for want of an alternative,
would appear on every second line.
Even this poem 
has to repeat the word quark
just to get its point across.
So let this be my quark poem
and leave it at that.

John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in New World Writing, Santa Fe Literary Review, and Lost Pilots. His latest books, Between Two Fires, Covert and Memory Outside The Head are available through Amazon. He has upcoming poetry in the Seventh Quarry, La Presa and California Quarterly.

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         Spot Assessment     

By John Zedolik

These skeleton keys hail from Portugal,
states the hand-drawn phrase on gray
 
cardboard, which provenance unlocks
my thinking as to what is so special
 
about these thin fingers of old iron and brass
that to my lay-eyes do not appear any different
 
from the domestic variety that might sell
for far less, especially as used item and even
 
worse lacking the complementary locks,
necessary for utility securing some equally lost
 
door or chest, but in which some expert
in Iberian antiques might find money
 
and historical value. I cannot rid
 
      thus, my doubt of the sign’s worth
 
and the wares, better left to the keener sight
and mind that can unlock the mystery
 
safe, pendant and plain before a blind view.

John Zedolik has published hundreds of poems in many journals around the world. Earlier this year, he published Mother Mourning (Wipf & Stock), his third collection, which is available on Amazon.

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